Saturday, April 13, 2013

Back on my Feet

It’s been a week since they’ve died.  I’ve mourned enough.  I need to get moving now.

Canis has sort of…nursed me back to health, we could say.  Emotional health.  I’m grateful for that, but at the same time I want to get away as quickly as possible.  It seems like he’s a friend, but I’m not sure I trust him.  I know he’s reading this.  I just hope he understands what I mean.  But I don’t feel like I can fully trust him, and the last time I hung around someone I wasn’t sure I could fully trust…well, it’s too recent a memory to want to revisit.  That, and I think I’d like some space to be alone.  To think.

I spent a lot of the week trying to read up.  I have to say, I’m surprised at how many of us there are now.  Back when I first started blogging, there weren’t many of us online.  No one was there for me.  And now, I’m seeing more and more new faces springing up.  People running from the Slender Man.  People fighting him.  People who refuse to give up, roll over, and die.  And it’s not a good thing that there are so many of us.  But it’s good that we have each other.

So I’ve been reading up and trying to reach out.  As much as it might hurt in the end, I refuse to cut myself off from people, because to be perfectly honest—I’m weak.  I can’t do this on my own.  Finding the strength to go on living is really, really hard.  I need support from someone if I’m going to make it through all this.  But I don’t imagine I’m the only person who feels this way.  I don’t want to see any of you die.  I know I can’t do much, but I will do anything within my power to see you live and to give you some measure of comfort.  If you ever want to talk about anything at all, send me an e-mail.  wanderingfromdeath@gmail.com.  Pretty easy to remember.  I would love to talk to you.

I’ve been doing nothing, and it’s been getting me nowhere but deeper and deeper into depression.  But now?  Maybe now I can find the strength to climb out of it.  To try to actually do something with what little life I have left.

26 comments:

  1. Well, I'm glad you're back. God knows we need all the help we can get.

    It's nice to see that the Slender Man is having trouble breaking our spirits. We're slowly but surely growing stronger.

    It's just a matter of time until we're able to REALLY strike back.

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    1. Really strike back now? At what exactly?

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    2. ...Really? Are you really THAT blind?

      Lemme give you a hint:

      He's got no face.

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    3. Ah. I figured as much. I was just assuming you weren't stupid enough to actually believe that.

      Sorry Steve. I won't make that mistake again. Its clear now you are plenty stupid.

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    4. Why thank you! It's also clear to me that you have no hope for the future!

      Have fun with your meaningless, boring life, Nyan Cat!

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    5. Have fun with your delusional illusions of friends and a growing army.

      We'll miss you when your dead.

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    6. Illusions of friends? Take a look at my blog, Nyan Cat. I've made quite a few friends, and they're already making a difference.

      I just wish people would just wake up and realize that at the end of the day, good will always triumph over evil, and the people who resist will eventually succeed.

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    7. Tell that to the last... I don't know, 3 generations of runners. You know, all the dead ones.

      Although, I think they've heard that fairy tale already so they might not care to hear it again.

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    8. Notice how I said "eventually". You must have tunnel-vision or something.

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    9. I have a vision spanning the short runners life span. Forgive me if I consider you inconsequential beyond that.

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    10. I am not a Runner. Get this fact through your think skull.

      In the end, death is the great equalizer. So, wouldn't that make YOU inconsequential when you die?

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  2. Hey! Sorry about murdering all of your friends! My bad!

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    1. Smooth Granny Killer, real smooth.

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  3. Its a good thing that you don't trust him, don't trust anyone, is my motto, always keep the third eye open around everyone.

    Good to hear your getting back on your feet, when you review, and you are wrong, you are not weak. Far from it. Weak people sit in the corner and spend their time crying, and eventually dying, without doing anything useful for the cause.

    You didn't only bounce back, but I think, you even inspired some of your followers to actually start fighting back. A man that can inspired people, is far from being weak.

    Now stop whining and get back in the battlefield, soldier.

    - Mr. Incognito.

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    1. Does leading children to their slaughter inspire runners now? I was unaware they had started employing blood fucking sacrifices.

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    2. They started employing sacrifices a long time ago, both sides in fact.

      I wasn't talking about sacrificing anyone, I was talking about being able to bounce back and still have the will to fight, after going trough such horror, at the same time knowing that those lives are on your consciousness.

      Besides, I wrote "I think" as in, I'm not sure, or don't know. Didn't inspire me, because I don't need inspiration. But I don't know about others, so it was just an assumption.

      I have a feeling you failed to bounce back at some point in your life, so you decided to roll with it until the end.

      But I can be wrong of course.

      - Mr. Incognito.

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    3. Can't come back from everything but I like to hit the ground rolling.

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    4. Why don't you go find a cactus to stick your dick in?

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    5. He's a cat. All we have to do is throw him into the Arctic Ocean and watch him drown.

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    6. Why don't you stick an umbrella up your cunt and open it?

      And the obvious way to defeat Steve is to throw her out a window. Watch her fall.

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    7. Wow...I think I actually succeeded in making Nyan Cat angry.

      Victory is MINE!

      Yes, do throw me out the second story window. I will die and come back as a vengeful ghost.

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    8. Don't flatter yourself Steve. Your about as infuriating as a retarded puppy.

      It's fun to watch you try to do things at first but that the end of the day it depressing to watch you fail and to know your condition will lead to a short life.

      I weep for you or something. Truly.

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    9. Don't judge me by the mistakes I've made, but by what I've learned from them.

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  4. I'm glad you're doing OK. Take what time and measures you need to recover, I cannot imagine anything more dangerous than fighting an entity while feeling hopeless.

    I read up on your loss, and I am sorry for it. You are brave to still be standing after such personal damage. Believe me when I say you are not responsible.

    There is a difference between living and existing. And you will soon be back among the living, if you aren't already.

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  5. Hang in there. You're gonna be alright.

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