Friday, November 23, 2012

Thanksgiving Dinner

Lyron prepared a Thanksgiving meal for us yesterday.

It was really nice to have a meal that size again.  Since I've been on my own, it's actually been years since I've eaten like that. We had turkey, mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, a bit of ham, stuffing, cranberry sauce...the works for your typical Thanksgiving meal.  Before eating, we all went around the table stating what we were thankful for.  It wasn't hard to come up with something.  We're all just thankful that somehow, against all odds, we're still alive.

But it worries me.  Not the meal.  Not Lyron, since I'm pretty confident by this point that she really does care for us in her own way.  The thing that worries me are how good things are.

Wayward mentioned on her blog that things are, if you'll pardon the cliche, quiet.  Too quiet.  I agree.  Everything is too good.  It's like the calm before the storm.  You just can't have nice things when dealing with the Fears.

So Wayward and I have packed.  We're ready for when everything hits the fan and we have to take off running again.  We're going to enjoy these little luxuries for as long as we can, and I think Lyron would be offended if we bolted before we have to (and while I don't like trusting Lyron, I like offending her even less).  But we're ready to run the minute we need to.

Thursday, November 15, 2012


Wayward and I had a talk with Lyron a couple weeks ago.  She's working on a transcript for us, and I'll post that when she finishes it, but let's just say for now that we may have misjudged her some.  She may be a servant of multiple Fears, but I'm not sure how much choice she actually has in the matter.  I think I'd rather die than work for a Fear, but then again, I guess that's why I'm running.

I want to trust her.  I really do.  And it hurts not to.  It feels like I'm betraying her by not letting my guard down.  Like it's unfair to her.  And I can't tell.  Maybe it's the right thing to do, but maybe it's because it hits just a little close to home.

She's lost someone named Lily too.

It's just enough to make me think.  We've all lost people close to us.  Sometimes they end up dead, like my parents and Lily's entire family.  Sometimes we leave them behind, like all my friends back home.  I know that I never talk about them.  I can't.  What happens if I let something slip?  Then they're in as much trouble as Lily was and I still am.  More, since they're unprepared.

Anyway, the reason I've been so quiet is because I've been doing research.  Lyron gave us some documents that have a lot of notes on the Fears.  I've been comparing it to everything I've learned so far and it seems like while the information may not actually be false, it might be inaccurate due to inconsistencies.  I've seen the same thing with the Slender Man, so I wouldn't be too surprised.

I've also been in contact with Canis some more.  I've sent him some of the information, and in response, he's sent me some as well, which I've shared with Wayward.  I want to discuss things with her in more detail, but she's always so difficult to talk to--mostly because she doesn't like to listen.  It's really a shame that the Choir affects her so much, since she seems like she's really nice.  I wonder if she used to be talkative before all this happened to her.  I wonder what her life was life.  It's strange.  I've spent weeks with her, but I feel like I know Lyron, who's on the other side, better than I know Wayward.

Anyway, I've (potentially) learned a lot about Fears that I didn't know so much about before.  I'm really looking as much as I can into the Slender Man and Cold Boy specifically (since they're the ones that I've personally encountered), as well as the Choir, since I think that there might be a connection between the Choir and Not-Redlight, and also because I think it might help me understand Wayward a little better.  I'm not going to bother sharing, since I don't want to post information that I'm unsure of, but I might go into it more later on.

Another thing: after Canis mentioned that Raggedy "doesn't exist," I figured I'd ask him about Wayward and Lyron.  Wayward's blog doesn't exist for him, but Lyron's does.  He says that he can't find any sort of records of her, but he can read her blog and--while I don't want to jinx things by mentioning it--he's actually been able to visit where we are and identify the house where we're staying.  But when he looks into the house's background, he gets conflicting stories.  It's abandoned.  It was demolished.  It was never built.  While Lyron's not the owner of the house, the name she gave for the owner doesn't match any of the multiple names Canis managed to unearth for the current owner.  When he looks into the names he does find, they either do own the house, own different houses, have passed away, or never existed in the first place.  He's confused, but he doesn't think it's that abnormal for people affected by the Fears, and even has a few theories as to what might be happening.

So that's what's been happening.  Research, research, and more research.  I'll post again if anything interesting happens or if I find something particularly notable.

Thursday, November 1, 2012


Things seem almost too good to be true at the moment.  From my experience, when things seem too good to be true, they usually are.  So I'm on my guard at the moment.

Wayward and I are staying with Lyron.  It's not her house, but I haven't gotten much more information out of her apart from the fact that it belongs to some man she saved.  Apparently he was pretty rich, because it's a nice place.  There's a TV screen in pretty much every room, even the bathrooms.  And the beds are really, really nice, which would be wonderful if we were staying with someone who wasn't affiliated with the Fears in the way Lyron was.  As it is, Wayward and I have been sleeping in shifts.  Lyron looks like she was telling the truth when she said that we'd easily be able to overpower her, but she could always call in reinforcements.  And either way, it's not like you need to be a combat expert to slit someone's throat in their sleep.

That said, I feel bad mistrusting Lyron, since she's been so good to us.  Like I mentioned, she serves several different Fears, but apart from that, she seems like a really nice woman.  She's welcoming, accommodating, nice, and I guess she's pretty attractive as well.  Overall, she's a really easy woman to trust, which is exactly why I'm trying so hard not to trust her.  It's maybe not fair to her, but we can't take chances.

We met at a fairly large cafe.  Wayward and I had insisted on a public place in case anything went wrong.  Lyron happily agreed and then announced that she would take us shopping.  Her treat, she said.  She'd buy us food and any other supplies we'd need.  After all, apparently she's got access to funds from Australian banks because of the Fears.  I feel bad about spending her money, and guilty about using money that's associated with Fears, but on the other hand, it's using the Fears' own funds against them in a way, right?  That's nothing to feel guilty about.

So we've just sort of lived under the same roof for a few days.  I haven't felt comfortable opening up to Lyron yet, and Wayward doesn't much talk to anyone.  Tomorrow, though, I think that I'm going to try to get some information from Lyron.  I owe her an interview as well.  I'll let you all know how that goes.