Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Today would have been her birthday

First of May.

For the past few years she'd give me a card for a little kid.  Someone exactly a decade younger than me.  And then she'd write a "1" in front of every number or a "teen" after it depending on whether it was written or a numeral.

I got a card for an 8-year-old the other day.  Did what she always did for me.  Had to buy it before coming here so that no one would see me.  I'm back home just for the day.  Just so I could visit her.  I left the card and some flowers by her grave.  Cried.  Sat there for an hour before I could tear myself away.  I have to keep moving.  This is the one place where I can't let anyone see me.  I have to lay low.

Happy 18th birthday, Lily.  I miss you.

8 comments:

  1. Do tell, is this a yearly ritual for you Wanderer?

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    1. Not yet. It hasn't been long enough to be yearly.

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    2. Such habit's make you traceable. Avoid those.

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  2. Comfort from death is a hard thing.

    Keep up and keep safe.

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  3. Swan has cake day, you have.. this.

    Everyone has their rituals.

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  4. That is a really weird tradition, man. Like is there any reason she seemed to think you were ten years younger than you were? Like is she some creepy pedophile?

    Then again, I sort of want to see what happens in a couple years. 20 makes things difficult.

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    1. And he wouldn't just get a 0 to go after the two because...?

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    2. It was just a silly little tradition she had. It was kind of funny and cute is all.

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