Wayward and I had a talk with Lyron a couple weeks ago. She's working on a transcript for us, and I'll post that when she finishes it, but let's just say for now that we may have misjudged her some. She may be a servant of multiple Fears, but I'm not sure how much choice she actually has in the matter. I think I'd rather die than work for a Fear, but then again, I guess that's why I'm running.
I want to trust her. I really do. And it hurts not to. It feels like I'm betraying her by not letting my guard down. Like it's unfair to her. And I can't tell. Maybe it's the right thing to do, but maybe it's because it hits just a little close to home.
She's lost someone named Lily too.
It's just enough to make me think. We've all lost people close to us. Sometimes they end up dead, like my parents and Lily's entire family. Sometimes we leave them behind, like all my friends back home. I know that I never talk about them. I can't. What happens if I let something slip? Then they're in as much trouble as Lily was and I still am. More, since they're unprepared.
Anyway, the reason I've been so quiet is because I've been doing research. Lyron gave us some documents that have a lot of notes on the Fears. I've been comparing it to everything I've learned so far and it seems like while the information may not actually be false, it might be inaccurate due to inconsistencies. I've seen the same thing with the Slender Man, so I wouldn't be too surprised.
I've also been in contact with Canis some more. I've sent him some of the information, and in response, he's sent me some as well, which I've shared with Wayward. I want to discuss things with her in more detail, but she's always so difficult to talk to--mostly because she doesn't like to listen. It's really a shame that the Choir affects her so much, since she seems like she's really nice. I wonder if she used to be talkative before all this happened to her. I wonder what her life was life. It's strange. I've spent weeks with her, but I feel like I know Lyron, who's on the other side, better than I know Wayward.
Anyway, I've (potentially) learned a lot about Fears that I didn't know so much about before. I'm really looking as much as I can into the Slender Man and Cold Boy specifically (since they're the ones that I've personally encountered), as well as the Choir, since I think that there might be a connection between the Choir and Not-Redlight, and also because I think it might help me understand Wayward a little better. I'm not going to bother sharing, since I don't want to post information that I'm unsure of, but I might go into it more later on.
Another thing: after Canis mentioned that Raggedy "doesn't exist," I figured I'd ask him about Wayward and Lyron. Wayward's blog doesn't exist for him, but Lyron's does. He says that he can't find any sort of records of her, but he can read her blog and--while I don't want to jinx things by mentioning it--he's actually been able to visit where we are and identify the house where we're staying. But when he looks into the house's background, he gets conflicting stories. It's abandoned. It was demolished. It was never built. While Lyron's not the owner of the house, the name she gave for the owner doesn't match any of the multiple names Canis managed to unearth for the current owner. When he looks into the names he does find, they either do own the house, own different houses, have passed away, or never existed in the first place. He's confused, but he doesn't think it's that abnormal for people affected by the Fears, and even has a few theories as to what might be happening.
So that's what's been happening. Research, research, and more research. I'll post again if anything interesting happens or if I find something particularly notable.